Loehr-Daniels Life Reading Reports
By Helen Roberts
The concept of masculine and
feminine souls is a unique teaching from Dr. John that, to my knowledge, is not
part of any other system of spiritual teaching; yet it gives us tremendous
insight into the dynamics of each person on earth. In fact, a psychologist
friend once told me that an understanding of masculine and feminine souls is
invaluable to her counseling, even though she rarely mentions reincarnation to
her clients.
Actually, the soul is
androgynous (both masculine and feminine), but it splits into a masculine and
feminine half for its incarnations. Each person is from either the masculine or
feminine half of its whole soul. We refer to the masculine half as a “masculine
soul.” We call the feminine half a “feminine soul.” During its incarnational period, the soul halves will have separate
incarnations but will come together between earth lives. After a soul graduates
from earth, the masculine and feminine halves unite, become one again, and go
into realms other than earth for further growth and responsibility.
The decision for the soul
gender split came at the dawn of mankind. Without getting into a lot of detail
here, let’s look at Dr. John’s teachings about the soul split. Before the
existence of the soul, there were other spiritual beings, begotten children of
God. The “soul” - in his terminology – is not the only child of God, but one
particular type. It was birthed with the specific purpose of helping to
decrease evil on earth. (We define evil as anything that is contrary to the
Creator’s will and way.) The soul also shares the general purpose of all
children of God – that of growing in His nature, thus engendering more
compatibility with our Creator.
First, through guided
evolution, Homo sapiens was produced as the earthly home of the spiritual being
we call the soul. Then the time came to connect the soul with its earthly
material body. High spiritual beings decided that in order for prehistoric man to
survive, it would be best to concentrate certain qualities in one half of the
human race, the side we call masculine. These qualities would be physical
strength, mental shrewdness and ingenuity, and a drive to succeed that
encouraged com-petition. Man would take on major responsibility for survival in
the earth plane. In the other half of the human race would be entrusted the
responsibility to bring to Earth God’s values, thereby increasing the good and
decreasing the evil. The feminine was given a touch with other realms and
entrusted with God’s values of truth, beauty and goodness. Women could instill
their children with these values as they nurtured them.
To facilitate the beginning
of male and female members of the human race, the soul divided into a masculine
and feminine half. This was the plan when the soul first came to earth. Without
the masculine, the human being would not have survived. Without the feminine,
mankind would be just another animal on Earth. However, this split into the
masculine and feminine halves was done to get mankind established on earth, and
the split was not to be permanent, but temporary while the soul inhabited
earth. God’s other spirit children are not divided. After the soul graduates
from earth, the two halves come together and the soul operates as one. For this
reason, the masculine half had to develop feminine qualities, and the feminine
half had to develop masculine qualities. Otherwise, when the half-souls became
one again, there would be a schizophrenic split.
The original need for the
soul split into the masculine and feminine halves no longer exists. Today’s
world requires a more integrated individual, containing both masculine and
feminine qualities. However, early in mankind’s history, a further use for the soul
split became evident. By developing qualities of the other half, souls could
grow more rapidly. The split proved to be an extraordinary tool for soul
growth. This particular tool forms the basis for many dynamics in human beings.
We can better understand
ourselves and others as we study the different ways that the split affects
personalities. For this reason and because the teaching of the soul split is
unique to our teachings, we will bring you from time to time life readings that
demonstrate how the masculine and feminine dynamics of souls can play out in
personalities. Comments will be interspersed in the readings, but in a
different print to distinguish them from Dr. John.
This life reading is for a
feminine soul who rebelled against masculine living. Born in California in
1930, Desiree was an only child of illegitimate birth. By the time she was
twelve she worked so that she and her mother could survive. She was in and out
of Juvenile Hall for prostitution and was an alcoholic before she was 15. Hoping
to improve herself, she married Phineas, a man 40
years older. He was a writer, so they moved to New York City to further his
career. Phineas had numerous affairs and encouraged
Desiree to do the same. He moved two other women into the house and his bedroom.
He eventually pushed his wife into a relationship with Dirk, a former dancer
who preyed upon women. Dirk supported himself by persuading different women to
give him money and possessions.
When Desiree became pregnant
by Dirk, Phineas kicked her out of her home, saying
she was a bother to have around. She became Dirk’s prostitute. In time, Desiree
was able to leave Dirk and support herself, her son and her mother with her
earnings as a high priced call girl. Her mother appeared to be indigent, but in
truth had an income that she hid from her daughter until her death. To escape
her life of prostitution, Desiree married a man named Roscoe, who was studying
for the priesthood. Unfortunately, he never supported her or her son. Instead,
he preached religion while he depended upon her prostitution to support the
three of them. At the time of her life reading she spoke of her “unbelievable
agony of soul, and conflict of raging wars of guilt and sin within my nature.”
She had found a solace in studying reincarnation and wanted to finish raising
her son and then enter a monastic life to achieve a closer communion with God.
Dr. John explained that she
was in a karmic life – not to punish but to teach the soul what it would not
learn of its own accord. Desiree was a feminine soul who had rebelled against
masculine living. The soul foolishly believed that if it became a really awful
man, it would no longer have to have masculine incarnations. The young feminine
soul had not caught the vision of developing her masculine nature. Her life
reading follows:
Dr. John:
That portion of the soul that is incarnate in the present personality
expression of Desiree comes from the feminine half of the soul. The soul has
incarnated in the past chiefly in the feminine expression, but it has also
incarnated twice in masculine expression. However, it resented and resisted
coming into the masculine framework, refusing to accept the cosmic teaching
which could give the understanding of what God did when He ordained that souls
experience earth living through these two major frameworks of expression. The
result was that when the ongoing processes and plans and love of God brought to
this soul experiences in masculine living, the soul, in rebellion and
resistance, responded by being the worst possible masculine expression. This
was a childish effort to persuade the Cosmos to change its mind, to say in
effect to the soul, “You were right. You make a terrible man, so we’ll put you
back in feminine expression.”
Now of course you understand
that this is just a manner of speaking. But that is what took place, and after
two very unpleasant experiences in masculine expression the soul was swung back
into feminine expression, into the present lifetime. However, the fact that she
is in feminine expression at the present time does not mean that the soul has
won its way and that there will be no more masculine incarnations. There is a
certain respite in coming back into feminine living, but more importantly
sometimes a soul is taught what it needs to learn by being given its own way
and then being taught through that framework. In this lifetime there has been
much exploitation of this personality from the time she was a child on up to
the present day.
This
pattern of exploitation is the pattern that this soul set in motion herself in
the lifetimes in masculine expression. In those lifetimes the masculine
personalities that the soul assumed used the weapon of exploitation, not solely
of women but of men also. So one of the major feed-ins of the present life is
this element of exploitation – which the soul is experien-cing
not as punishment, but that it might know from its own experience what it is
like to be exploited, as it has exploited others in the past. This is a
learning for the soul, a “bringing home the point.”
We know about the
exploitation of Desiree in this lifetime. Dr. John tells us about the two past
lives that set the present life in motion. The first masculine life was in the
1500s in France. The then incarnation of
the Desiree soul was an accountant who took advantage of others, exploiting
them for his own gain. Desiree’s mother this lifetime was one of those who was
taken advantage of, so the mother took advantage of Desiree in this life by
withholding money from Desiree that would have made her life easier.
As a method to get out of
masculine living, the Desiree soul produced a very cruel man in its next life
in the 1800s American South. This man was a white overseer in charge of the
slaves in a cotton field. He was smart
enough to ingratiate himself with people who could be stepping stones to what
he wanted. His cruelty coerced the slaves into increased production, so he was
given the responsibility of buying the new slaves. He not only treated the
slaves harshly, but he also used the wives of the field hands for his personal
sexual desires, then farmed them and their children out to white men for a
handsome price.
Desiree’s first husband in
this life, Phineas, was a nephew of that slave
master. When the boy was only 13, the uncle became his guardian. The overseer
farmed out his nephew, as a sexual object, to men for profit. The boy
eventually was able to get away from the situation and committed suicide. In
this life, Phineas punished Desiree for the actions
of the overseer. However, at another time, he will reap the karma he incurred
in this life. God does not allow us to resort to vengeance. He will handle the
slave master, Phineas, and any others of that type.
Back to the life reading.
Dr. John:
But this is not the only force feeding into this lifetime which makes the
present life as it is and the present personality as she is. There are other
forces. There was a lifetime as a prostitute in Greece in the 1400s AD at which
time the personality, without any self-recrimination, any sense of guilt,
accepted that framework very happily. When the opportunity was offered her to
get away from it, she refused. She didn’t want to leave. That was her framework
and she enjoyed it.
Dr. John told Desiree that
Dirk was one of her lovers in this Greek life who offered her marriage, but she
turned him down. In this lifetime he kept her in the same role that she
preferred in the 1400s. There was one other past life that fed into this life
as Desiree.
Dr. John: The Greek life followed a 1300s
Spanish incarnation, during which time she was in a Religious order and was of
a very high mystical nature. Through her prayer life and self-discipline, she
knew much of the experience of communion with God. This life also has its force
feeding into the present life. Now, as we look at the present life pattern and
its continuing unfoldment, we see that the forces of
exploitation that this soul in its masculine expressions set in motion have
pretty much run themselves out. They have been expressed, and the continuing
search for God, for good, on the part of the personality, the acceptance on her
part of her own responsibility, that she has been responsible for this pattern,
the quality of honesty and sincerity that she expresses, plus the very genuine
tears and pleas for forgiveness, an honest outreach – all of these combine to
indicate an ending of this pattern of exploitation. It does not need to
continue throughout this life pattern.
Now it is a road down which the personality has
walked quite some extent by her own initiative. The road that will bring her
away from this pattern and into another pattern is a road she also must walk to
quite some extent by her own initiative. There are no magic words to say to
change the picture over night. The new pattern of life that is for her depends
a great deal upon her setting it in motion, getting it started. There should be
a complete dissociation with the individuals from the past that are a negative
influence in the pattern that is to be dropped. Of course she has her son. But
it is not impossible for her to take her son and go into a new community and
start over without the ties from the past that hamper her. It would not be an
easy pattern to evolve. It is true that she has not prepared herself, she has
not trained herself for any socially accepted profession. And at the same time
she has known the fruits of comfortable living that can be brought from an
adequate income.
It may be that she will have to adjust for a
period of time to a greatly limited income – limited, that is, in comparison to
what she has known in the past. Things may not be easy financially for her and
she may not be able to do all that she would like to do for her son. But he
will survive, and she will survive. Even if she did no more than waited tables
in a restaurant – the work doesn’t matter. What does matter as a first step, is
closing the doors to the past.
Until the doors to the past
are closed – and not only closed but locked and barred and sealed so that there
is no possibility to return -- only then will she be truly free and in a
position to send forth clean, positive energy into life and to attract to her
those positive forces that will carry her and her son on into a life that is
prosperous in all of its avenues of expression.
Now she can do this. She has a very fine mind, a
very good mind. She could take some more education in night school and better
herself in that way. There are many things she can do to build a new pattern.
The past does not have to continue to set the framework for the rest of this
present lifetime.
We want her to know, too, that to a very great
extent the weight of sin and guilt that she carries is a weight that she is
putting upon herself. She has guides and teachers on the other side who love
her very much, and she is a child of God and He loves her very much. There is
no condemnation held against her. The smallest act of turning for
enlightenment, for growth, for understanding, is answered with a great deal of
love and compassion, and without condemnation for the past. Now she herself is
going to have to work through these feelings. She has established them, and
given a great deal of emotional force to them. It’s quite a habit and will take
time to let go. But she can begin by accepting in faith that she is not held a
prisoner under condemnation because of what has passed.
This is the lifetime in
which the present personality is the growing edge for the soul. . . This
personality, as she turns from that which has been and establishes and holds to
the new, is in essence the savior for this portion of the soul which has been
in rebellion and in resistance and has sent forth negative forces which have
caused much grief for itself. . .The remaining years of this lifetime can be as
new, as different, as if the personality-life of Desiree ended at this point by
death and then there was a rebirth, a bringing of forces of the soul into a new
personality. She is simply saving the time it would take to grow up and die and
be born and grown up again! She has the opportunity of living two lifetimes in
one.
Desiree also asked about her husband, Roscoe,
and was told that they had not past lives together. Then Dr. John said the
following about him:
Dr. John: There is no good influence there. He
has chosen a stand on the side of weakness. He is in personality expression a
predatory personality, and he does not belong in the new pattern of life that
she could evolve. Only one person majorly belongs in
that pattern. Now she may have some genuine friends that she might like to keep
in touch with. But only one person from the old belongs with her in the new,
and that is her son. (Life Reading
Number 1946)
There is no way to fully understand the
forces in Desiree without examining her past lives. There is no way to fully
understand the forces of her past lives without understanding masculine and
feminine souls. This young feminine soul acted as a young child would, refusing
to pay attention to its parents. The soul refused to try to learn to be a good
man, preferring to “throw a temper tantrum” and trying to blackmail God into
letting it have its way.
God could not allow this any
more than a good parent could allow its child to go without wholesome food and
good rest. Both food and rest are needed to grow a healthy body. The child
might be allowed to skip one meal but not to indefinitely ignore its health.
Both masculine and feminine lives are needed to grow a healthy soul. God might
allow a soul a little time to get used to learning its opposite gender, but no
soul will be allowed to indefinitely avoid such an important part of its
development.